The Opposite of Feeling Amazing
Remember that post I wrote about sometimes
?
Well, the opposite is also true.
There are times when I just feel like a loser, especially when it comes to running.
I have mostly felt like a loser lately!
I had a nightmare over Christmas break.
I was at the beginning of a marathon, still deciding if I was going to run it. I told someone I had only done a 10 mile long run up to that point. I decided I could still do the marathon, just run really slow at the back. By the time I decided to go, everyone had already started. I got lost, then realized it was the Boston Marathon, ran a couple of miles to get back on course, and couldn't find it!
I woke myself up!
At that point, yes, the farthest I had run was 10 miles.
You'd think that would kick me in the kiester and get me going!
Week before last I only ran 3 times.... 3 times!
Can you say loser?
I ran a 12, 4 and 10.
That's it!
Fortunately my pace is not
horrible
. My long runs are around 7:48 pace. Ideally though I would be faster! The only way to get faster is to put the training in.
Any other winter I really wouldn't call myself a loser, this winter, since I'm marathon training, 24 miles for the week just isn't enough.
Gone are the feelings of awesome, all around me are feelings of frustration!
Why am I struggling to get this in? Where is my drive? Where is my fire? Where is my sacrifice and determination?
Last week I picked it up a bit, but still missed a day and only ran 5 Saturday instead of 14. I felt sick and could not get back after my 5. GI blahhh.
Today I will run my 14. (I did run my 14)
This week I will get 35-40 miles in.
Invest is my word for 2016.
Robert Arnott said: 'In investing, what is comfortable is rarely profitable'.
Indeed these words apply to all investments we make, not just financial.
I have slipped into a comfort zone.
I need to push out of that to make this investment profitable, or 'worth it' to me.
I have worked hard to qualify, I invested good money to be part of this race.
I don't want to arrive there only to survive this race.
I want to be ready.
I want to enjoy it.
I want to run well and with ease.
The investment happens now.
Running has to be higher on the priority list.
And, what I do with each run has to be profitable, not wasteful.
ran 14 on the trml. wet hair, sopping tank, but it's done.
7:50 average, did some hills, and ended with 7:30 pace.
In other news my Achilles are doing ok. I have tried to strengthen my feet and calves more. I have been more dedicated to stretching and massage. They don't hurt as bad as they have!