Wearing on the Outside / Feeling on the Inside
This time of year is about the only time I feel like I can wear this poofy pink skirt.
Although, as I type this, I think I could pull it off in the summer time, with a tee to tone it down.
Anyway, December is when I bust it out!
This is how I wore it last year.
I paired it with a cowl neck top and my flower poof belt.
It's a great look for the holidays!
I did my hair in a braided crown, which I wore the whole next day too!
It isn't that hard to do, you just need to know how to braid, and willing to practice a bit... or, I guess, happy with imperfection, which I am!
There are my outsides!
Here is what I've been feeling inside:
- Depressed - There I said it. I am trying to be happy, I know I am blessed. But, as I go about my days I feel it's shadow behind everything I do. I feel like something is missing and find myself randomly tearing up as I think about my best buddy, who lives so far away now. I feel like no one quite knows me like she does and in a way I feel alone.
- Unsuccessful - We had a big family conversation this past weekend. There has been a lot of nit-picking, tattling, fighting etc going on amongst my kids and it has driven me to my already frazzled edge. I feel unsuccessful as a mom when my home is not filled with peace and happiness.
Especially during this time of the year, I mean c'mon!
- Thoughtful - The end of one year and beginning of the next initiates reflection for me. Where was I, where am I, where do I want to be, what am I doing?
- Dreamy - The new year will bring an exciting change, in store form! I am dreaming about the changes I want to make, the direction we will take and this new adventure.
- Unmotivated - I have not been running like I need/want to at this point in my training. Responsible? See #1! Like I said, I am trying, but that fire and drive is not roaring right now.
- Connected - I've been able to catch up with people on the phone (Haley, Cand, Molly, Mom), I've invited people over, gone out, I've sent texts to my brothers. I'm glad to feel connected to people. I need that right now.
- Blessed - As crappy as I feel sometimes, I know, see and feel blessed. I have so much, am needed, wanted, important, supported. I have so much to be grateful for.